Life is a bed of roses with thorns, over come the thorns and get the rose.

My father just wanted to see how I do , what am capable of when I was joined in navodaya coaching center a month late compared to other. I turned out to be the topper there and got admitted in navodaya.

In my tenth class, 40 days ahead of the main exams, my principal and maths teacher declared there is no way I can pass the tenth class maths . She said if I can score more than 90, whole india would score 100. I got 30 in first pre-finals. I worked out myself for 40 days and scored 94 in main exam.

Ramaiah & Krishnamurthy coaching centers didn't let me even see their class rooms. Special coaching center accepted to admit me but assured I cannot get a rank in IIT . I failed as they said. Every friend and relative of my parents laughed behind them or said openly, "IIT is not for us, dont ruin your childrens life dreaming about it" . I tried again and scored 800 in IIT-JEE & 1635 in EAMCET

I failed in many courses. I had no idea what to do in my BTech Project, so I didnt do anything. I had many backlogs to complete to get BTech but no one was ready to offer them so that I can complete. The syllabus changed and they are no more offered. I begged the profs to give me 2-3 marks more so that I could pass the course and complete the course and complete my BTech. They just looked down at me as if am a begger and just waved their hands to get lost. I begged all of meta dept profs to allow me to do contact course of Biomaterial materials course. I begged all of design dept profs for one contact course, no one is ready to take as the prof who failed me was Prof. Shanmugam himself and no one wants to take risk. I was succesful in passing Solar energy and Airconditioning only after three attempts. I lied to Sterling Commerce and worked there for nine months and resigned there after telling the truth.

Father suffering with cancer, no income at home. I didnt complete my btech even after 6 years. Worst recession outside, so no guarantee of getting a job even if I complete the BTech somehow , though it appears impossibe. Need to complete the Btech project and a course. But no prof is ready to take me in. It was horrible. I stopped talking to all my friends, hid many things from my parents. Didnt wish anyone on their birthdays and festivals. The worst phase of my life. I even had an idea to kill myself. When things go bad like this, and you dont know the way out. Its suffocating, You are desperate to end this . But you cant, so you want to end the life itself. it appears to be easier. Just stay calm. Keep your hope alive wait till the time comes. It surely does.

I gaveup my self respect, with that I got lot of guts. I can do anything as am shameless. Met all the profs requesting to allow me to do a project, the great almighty Muthuveerappan accepted and I did a great project under him. I really did a wonderful job and am really really proud of that. I really worked hard and got my degree. It feels great , it wouldn't have felt so nice if any of the profs took pity on me and went easy on me. I am tougher and more proud of myself coz of that hard work and achievement.

After getting my degree, I didnt get any job as expected. Worked for very very less pay comparitively. It was very shameful to let anyone know the pay. Didnt open up myself to my friends yet. But they were there with me, though i didnt ping them. Though I never wish them on their birthdays. They are there when I need them. They know it and they come to me.

Father expired, mother expired, no job. No hope. No idea what to do in my life. It keeps getting worse. I did the best thing, probably best decision in my life. I took off. I did pgdsd course and ran away to bangalore. Came back to hyderabad after getting placed in Pramati. It was really a dream to get into pramati. Why am I telling all this. I want to tell the world. I want to tell myself. I want to tell everyone who is willing to hear . Bad things happen . bad things always happen . You want an exciting happening life. You want a life worth telling stories to your kids and their kids , bad thinds do happen. Good things can happen only after bad things, they get their value because of these bad things that happen in life.

As the life goes on you might not be aware of it , where its going. hang on to it, it will be clear after a while.  We only care of the immediate results and get depress or excited about that. Lifes lot bigger than that. Live life worth living. Please dont think am bluffing about myself, I just want to log this to motivate myself, to appreciate it, to celebrate it. I am proud of it whatever happens to it, I am proud of my life.