new year 20-10

New year, new hopes, new life ... its wonderful feeling. 2009 passed behind taking my parents from me and teaching great lessons in life. Most important lessons being ...

• Life is too short to wait,think,plan ... just go on and enjoy !! 
• Life hates to follow our plan, it has its own plans and they are better than our plans ( its good to be in this feeling)
• No person is bad. Nothing is bad. There is no such thing as bad. 

2009.
Starting the year in a painful job, with the ailing father waiting for his last hour. Mother with an amazing care for us hiding her agony and cheering us. Father telling tales every night as if its his last few hours available to talk with his son.  Sister trying her best to make her father suffer lesser even by a single minute of painless sleep. It started as ugly as possible. But no mistake, it proceeded uglier.

Father taking his last breathe peacefully in sleep on march 6th, life changed dramatically. Had to throw away the innocent looking BTech graduate image to a serious person taking care of his family. Yeah, I am the man of the family.

Relatives showed their real colors, friends showed their real generous side. Started hating those relatives and the hatred continues even now. Mother suffered even more, but not a single worry being shared with me. I left as a fatherless child taken care by his mother.

Plans changed, time to think about the career. Tried for MSIT at IIIT Hyderabad, good news .. got 82 rank and admission. Resigned to the hopeless job and joined MSIT with great ambitions and dreams. Mother waived her hands with sparkle in her eyes... "Take care and do well !! Its the last chance we have " .. " Yeah Mom, I won't let you down. I will be the king there ". The car zoomed and my mother out of my physical vision.

One week passed in IIIT-H. It wasn't what I dreamed of, appeared like a small college. MSIT students were treated as the non-IIITH students and as a burden for them. But I performed great in the classes. It became a habit to get 100% . Weekend, need to give a presentation. Need to impress everyone. Need to show everyone what amazing skills I got (from the experience of teaching, in full form). Checked the time in the cell phone .... 38 missed calls ... one sms. Checked the sms .." pedhamma serious , rush to the hospital" by bharath. Rushed out of the classroom. Went to the room, took my belongings and took an auto . Called my uncles and aunts who are with her ... " Nothing Vamshi ! She is in ICU. You rush here" .

Call from Sreedhar anna, from London. Whats going on .... its just less than three months I saw my father lifeless. Bad omens, bad thoughts ... not good ... definitely not good. Reached hospital. Mother sleeping deeply in the ICU with the ventilator fitted on. All weak people holding me and crying. Stronger ones fighting with the hospital guys. I could sense it .. their looks ... the same pity when my father died. I could sense their anger but sadness deep in their hearts. Everyone acting as if she died. What a pity . I asked Srinu mama .. "Why can't we take her to better hospital now ... ??" He didn't answer... he couldn't . He redirected me to another relative. She too was not able to answer. I stayed there for three hours. Its already 6 in the evening. Its getting dark. Its raining. All press reporters trying to talk to me ... but sent away by the relatives. Slowly understood the worst news in my life. Yes !! The worst possible one. Mother actually passed away few hours back. No one got the guts to tell me .

Strangely didn't cry. Didn't know what to do. Called Radhika .. She was like " what brother, calling this time. how was your presentation ... ".
" Radhika !! Mother expired .. " couldn't stop crying ...
Radhika .. "What are you talking, what the hell ... how ... oh no !! .. don't cry .. please don't cry ... courage ... "
Called my sister and bawa. Cried again. She promised to come India as soon as possible.
The fight in the ground floor reached its heights. It was the negligence of the staff there itseems. They were neglect and didn't check my mother's BP. She joined there for a smalll surgery. Its over and was successful. But my mother was afraid, couldn't live without father. Her blood pressure suddenly fell and got a painless cardiac arrest and lost her life in a fraction of second. Painless death.

She deserved more in life ... much much more .. above all I was addicted to her and can't think of living without her. I stopped crying, never cried later ... not even on the day of cremation.  Most annoying part is the practices the villagers have and the torture I need to go through apart from the loss of my dearest mother/father. Had to go through all of them ....

Relatives showed their faces out of the mask again. Disgusting. I yearned for love . Looked everywhere. Searched everywhere. Stayed with my sister. Sold all the household furniture and all the belongings at a give away price.  Applied for Canada. Visa rejected. two months passed.

New life style with my sister. Leant it, lived it. Later joined my school friends and started living with them. Another culture shock. The lifestyle of these bachelors, the way of thinking. The emphasis on girls ... the thinking way of girls ... bigg shock !! lived with it .

Tried my hands on trading by keeping a friend in the active participation. It was surpricingly successful and failure too.
Watched all the movies released after  august 2009.
Tried to go to GATE coaching, it was painful and understood IT is different from Computer Science and I am an IT guy. Stayed away from GATE. Went to gym for few days ..

Applied for jobs and applied for PGDSD program in IIIT Bangalore . Got admission in the program and got two interview calls from hottest startups by IITians. Sounded good, but the interview process still going on. Decided on going for the program in PGDSD in IIIT Bangalore.

The events not concerning me ... YSR death, floods, telangana issue etc etc .
What an year it was. Full of events . My life and other  lives. All  the events were competing each other to teach me a lesson. None of them had an interest to make me happy. Cupid too at his worst performance. Bad year, very very bad year!!

2010
Booked tickets to bangalore , flying on sunday(3rd jan). Sounds good. New life at bangalore. New friends (thats all the relation I can long for .. friends !! ) . New career . sounds good. very good. Welcome 2010... I started loving you already.